I can’t decide what to do. I want to give up. And then I don’t want to give up.
I’m afraid that it will always be like this. I don’t know how to control how I feel.
Dear heart and mind, get yourself together.
-Samantha
For a period in my life could I just please forget about you.
I think it would be way easier than feeling like this constantly.
And today made me realize it.
-Kristi
I wonder where you are right now.
What you’re doing.
What makes you laugh.
Who’s your best friend.
Why it’s you God chose.
I wonder if you exist.
- Kristin
And the worst freaking part, the part that’s bringing tears to my eyes, is that you’re never going to know.
You’re going to go on w/ your life, as I lie here sad, wondering what she had that I didn’t. Because at the end of the day, even if this was all your fault, I’m the one who lost.
- Kristin
Sometimes I wonder what things would be like now if I had moved to Washington sooner. Perhaps maybe if we had known each other back then, everything would be different. Maybe I would be over you by now. Or maybe we could have been together. Or maybe we wouldn’t even be friends right now. I don’t know. There are so many possibilities. But that isn’t what happened. I must have met you at that time for a reason. And I am still scrambling my brain to try and find out why. Why did we meet at that time?
Am I supposed to keep holding on? Or do I just give up now? Do I even possess the capability of giving up? I am the type of person to hold onto something and always fight for it.
It’s just… I am so tired
-Samantha
I wonder if you think of me as much as I think of you. You’re always on my mind even when I don’t want you to be. It’s as if everything I think about revolves around you and I just want it to stop. It’s as if you just went on with your life like nothing ever happened and I’m the only one heartbroken. I wish I knew what you were thinking. And I wish we could get back to how the way things were but only time will tell. Sigh.
- Kristi
I did all I could, and I gave everything, but you had to go your way, and that road was not for me.
— Kristin
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at first, i was mad.
frustrated. confused. upset. offended. angry. hurt. i had so many things that i wanted to tell you and explain to you and ask you. i was going to play your game and make you regret disappearing on me.
but now, i’m just sad. i don’t have anything to say to you, because my heart feels worn out. and i’m too tired to make you feel what i’m feeling.
so if this is the part of the story where we go our separate ways, then i guess there’s nothing i can do about it
- Kristin
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today, it has been exactly 10months since our very first conversation.
sad how i know that hahah.
- Kristin
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